The First Time I Ejaculated

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Female ejaculation. I knew it existed. I had read about it, even seen it on some dodgy late night sex show. None of this prepared me for it happening to me. I was freaked out. I was grossed out. (It didn’t help that the very first time I ejaculated was at my boyfriend’s parents’ house!)

Inspecting the ‘wet patch’, I was reassured that I hadn’t just peed myself – the liquid was clear and odourless. I was still freaked out. My partner was also in awe of it, albiet in a much more positive way – I think he finds it quite fascinating and exotic.

Ejaculating, to me, feels completely different to a ‘standard’ orgasm (is there such a thing?). Whilst the latter is a hard, pulsing sensation, the former is more of a physical release – a warm giving-in to pleasure and what your body is demanding of you. I prefer a normal orgasm, I find it much more earth-shattering.

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I wonder if this is purely because I’m not used to ejaculating yet – I’ve only ‘squirted’ a handful of times and it still shocks me. Researching the matter is of no real use – there has been such little research done on the subject and you can read a myriad of different theories, descriptions and causes in one sitting. Some claim it never happens, other dispute when it happens – during orgasm or before. Most of the information out there seems to be based on anecdotal testimony – which considering how one would research such a matter, should maybe be looked into more rather than dismissed as unscientific.

Indeed, considering how much research has been done and how well understood the male ejaculation is, it’s a bit shocking (but perhaps not surprising) that so little is known for sure about the female version – especially in the highly sexed world we live in. Perhaps if there was more known about it and it was more talked about, women like me wouldn’t be so freaked out when it happens.

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Back to my experiences of it – I am completely in awe of my body’s ability to do such a thing, even though I don’t fully understand why and how. However, I think that I have some way to go before I can embrace it wholeheartedly and enjoy it thoroughly. Thankfully I have a lifetime of sexual escapades ahead of me to find out!

5 thoughts on “The First Time I Ejaculated

  1. I am also a female ejaculator. Well, as much as this may sound weird, I was one. When I was younger I could ejaculate puddles of liquid – literally. The first boyfriend to experience this thought that it was wonderful! I enjoyed it too; just like in your case, it is a wonderful release – although not as intense as an orgasm. I found it necessary to ejaculate before I could orgasm. Many sexual partners later – most of which I never ejaculated with – I find it almost impossible to ejaculate anymore. I wonder if it is connected somehow to our comfort and security, because I have often been unable to ejaculate when I worry about the mess – and the relationship. I had a really great sexual relationship recently, and with him I found that now and then I ejaculated only a little. I equate it to “coming”, as opposed to orgasming. This guy said they were one and the same. Goes to show what he knew about women! 🙂


  2. P.S. Enjoy it, embrace it, it’s an amazing feeling and shows you how wonderfully complicated our bodies are. I miss those days and hope they return someday.


  3. Oh I know the feeling. It’s so wonderful. The gud thing about it is dat it pleases the guys,i know coz my boyfriend jumps 4 joy when i ejaculate. It is truly a feeling 2 embrace and enjoy,i know i do!


  4. I actually learned a little bit about it in a physiological psychology class at my university. Some women can push out a lot of vaginal fluids as they orgasm due to the spasm of vaginal muscles. “True” (as science determines it at least) female ejaculation is slightly different. If you want to know more about it, I suggest you look up the Mullerian system and the Wolffian system. I can try to explain it a little here, but you could probably find more by looking it up. Basically, as a fetus is developing in the womb, before it’s sex differentiates, it has the ability and all the equipment to become either female or male. The Mullerian system and the Wolffian systems are both present. The Mullerian system is the female reproductive ducts (fallopian tubes, uterus, etc.), and the Wolffian system is the male reproductive ducts (seminal vesicles, vas deferens, etc.). In a small subset of female fetuses, as they develop and the Mullerian system develops, the Wolffian system doesn’t go away. That means, as they finish the gestational period, are born, and grow older, they have the equipment (or Wolffian system) to ejaculate. So it’s literally the same system males use to ejaculate. That’s at least one explanation, I don’t know if that helps you understand it more, or at least feel more comfortable about it. It happens to few female fetuses but it isn’t completely unheard of. And unfortunately, there is never enough research on women. We are “more difficult” to study than men because of our constant hormonal changes. Most of the studies you will read are based off of data solely about men, which is a huge shame.


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