You’ve always believed that pleasing people is more important than your own happiness, for a long time you’ve cared what people think, you’ve allowed that to rule your life. Through this you’ve allowed yourself to belong in a box that they put you in, afraid to get out of that box because of what they would think. You have for a long time been afraid to say what you think, rather telling people only what they want to hear. What you don’t realize is that it’s not necessary for you to care what people think. You will realize this and get yourself out of that box; it will be difficult because it’s new to you. Your new found freedom will empower you; however it will also lead to you making some mistakes, whose consequences will prove too much to bear. You will find strength in God and in friends and move on with your life.
You’ve always had this constant fear of suffering, of not getting ahead in life, that you would always be dependent on other people, a fear that made you believe you will never find a job. Well guess what, you got that first job and you were happy, though only for a while. At this job you will be the timid, loyal employee that you believe you have to be. This will lead to you being treated in an unfavourable fashion and belittled. Don’t despair because in time you will realize that you do not deserve to be treated in such a manner. You will realize that you are worth more than they believe you to be and you will leave that job. You will finally get to a job that is completely different from what you did. This job will allow you to let go of your timid self. Through this job you will allow your voice to be heard. You will speak up when you see injustice in your way, you will speak up, not only on your behalf but that of your workmates you feel need to be supported.
You will grow as an individual, getting to know yourself better as you go along and realize that there is still so much you need to learn.