The First Time I Realized Death Was Unavoidable

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When I was around 12 years old, I realized that death is inevitable and that all I ever work for and gain in my life will just be lost one day when my life ends. My body will then be placed into a finely crafted casket and put into a 6-foot deep hole with a headstone saying something nice about my life. The question I have then is, why do we work hard to have this fabulous life when, one day we will all end up in a claustrophobic hole for all of eternity?

Why must human lives end? We are the most developed species on the planet and hold all of the knowledge that will support future generations. Every time I would think about this, I would get very scared and a little lighthearted at the thought of what I would do for all of eternity. Would I see the sun blow up? How will I spend all of my days? There is a sense of time here on earth, but in death is there anything like that? What happens when you die? All of these questions were stirring around in my head when I was a mere 12 years old.

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Not only did I become scared of this inexorable death, but I also began to question the idea of believing in a God. If he really did love us, then why would he let us die? If he really did exist, then why would he want all of his hard work in creating us to just be forgotten? The neurons in our brains die along with us and the possibility of life after death is unrealistic from a scientific standpoint. However, if you look at it from the religious side of things, then death is just another passage into a different stage of “life”. Is believing some higher power like God worth it all throughout life even if there ends up not even being a heaven or hell or even purgatory? What if the Greeks or Romans were right? What if we are reincarnated? There are so many theories floating around in the world that how can somebody be sure of what they want to believe or where they want to end up for ALL OF ETERNITY? What if I don’t like it there? What if it’s a place with all of the people I disliked in my life?

As I grew older and had more experiences to base some of my thoughts about death, I sort of decided that we will all end up in the same place, and hopefully it’s a place that we all like and be happy for the rest of time.

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2 thoughts on “The First Time I Realized Death Was Unavoidable

  1. I know what thats like. but I am lucky becaus I have a strong religouse view point that not eveyone does. check out, scroll over “our faith” and click “Gods plan of happiness”. I hope that you will find solice in this!


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